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明天（今天）一定要吃好多东西，甜的，重口的，碳水。
填不满身体的空洞了，但是力所能及地填满我的胃吧

一到晚上就缺爱缺得厉害。白天又成为一个健全人
我不是光合植物，就是太阳能电池

故事明确主体，突出重点
只有现实混乱不堪

it almost suddenly , maybe because of maomao . i suddenly afraid of dying . im afriad of someone just suddenly leave without saying . and now i realize most of the people i know may suddenly gone . terrified me

feeling upset to almost everything. maybe i need some exercise to let me too tired to feel upset. whats wrong with me these days

maybe i should stop thinking about things make me feeling sad. i know that will have some bad affect but never mind
maybe i should write something for my confused mind

feeling sad
idk but maybe i should go somewhere far away from here
it makes me feel like i can't breath
finally realized that she dont like me watching vtuber all the day
but what should i do instaed?she said the things i can do is not just study , but i don't think other things is safe , like the years i have had , only when i studying , i won't be educated.maybe she's right , but i have listened her words for a long long time , i don't wanna do that anymore.
at lease not now
maybe just a kid's mind, thinking that i can escape

想变聪明，想到胡言乱语（更不聪明了起来）

需要能被我无限摄入的拥抱

迟钝到最近才发现我有创伤存在。这也算是一种被影响吧

我很担心我朋友，两个朋友要去两个危险的地方。我知道他们的生死跟我没有半点关系，我不能左右。可是我想让他们快乐安康的一直活着

讨厌很多东西，当然特别讨厌自己
像是被触发的心理疾病

虽然嘴上说着都过去了，要往前看。但是看到高分还是会发癫

天啊，突然开始考虑别人讨不讨厌我。有这时间多讨厌一下自己吧，不然精力多到要去揣测别人，多到要多愁善感了

哥啊，你怎么瘦成这样了。

想要切掉多余的东西
头一回有这么清晰的另一个性别的感觉

fucking shit why there're so many idiots talking like shit. I just don't want to hear their blindly confident words. Why they're so confident i can't understand.

于是我开始讨厌一切

我受不了了，一个数字。我也的确被反应在上面
好讨厌自己啊，带来了这么多麻烦
好麻烦啊，要去一个再也不用回来的地方
我怎么只会逃跑啊

一颗珍珠，从前在海底
如今在星空，漫天星海
踩着云飞去元方吧，远方有明亮天空
不要再站在原地默哀了，留下过去，保存回忆，飞吧